Past few days

Hi,

I am sitting here at my desk and trying to make heads or tails on this miserable excuse for a thesis. So far I have advanced about as much as an asthmatic ant with some heavy shopping.
I have no idea really why this is so hard. I just can not sit down and do this.
For the past year I have been really struggling in school. I have had my moments, but really I owe a lot to my group mates, Rikki, Mark and Thomas. They carried me through and I will never be able to pay them back.

I am seriously contemplating postponing the essay. Why? Because for one thing I just can not relate to it and second I simply am exhausted mentally. At the same time I feel great personally. Developments the past few days in my personal life have been so great, fast, but great. This paradox inside of me is so strange.
There is a widely used excuse in Iceland for kids, who really do not want to go to school: "I have school boredom". Actually sounds better and with a deeper meaning in Icelandic. Anyway, I guess I caught this disease and quite frankly have had it for some time.

I am going to give the thesis a chance until Monday evening. If I do not feel I can make it I will actively find work and do the thesis alongside work. I know this is a horrible decision, but I sincerely feel I am ramming into the wall of time.
Now as you read this you are probably thinking: "Ah yes, Arnar has given up on this!" But I have not. I am still fighting and this thing is just a way to express what I feel and an outlet. Why have it public? Well, because I have nothing to hide.

Now, I am beginning to sound like a politician in Iceland. Asking the question and answering it at the same time.

Yes, that is all folks. The ramblings of Arnar are to an end today. I will ramble on later.

Take care and remember to feed your urges otherwise the urges feed off you.

Arnar Thor