Life gauge

Being single again does have its benefits. I am a single person 2/3s of the month and well sometimes it is so nice. I am sitting here outside the art museum Brandts Klædefabrik with a cup of coffee I got for a very fair price at 7/11 and well it is not the best coffee in the world but it is cheap. The weather is so nice and a little breeze caresses my face. I was a little depressed yesterday and felt really alone. I feel like I am stuck in a state of Status quo and those of you who know the music from the band with very same name know probably what I mean ;) I have been so wanting to meet someone and just feel that I am wanted. Probably what every person wants. After a long and very enjoyable chat with on of my closest friends I felt better and feel I am ready to move on. The divorce, even though I am sure it was a correct move for me and Solrun, has nevertherless made me feel so vulnerable and my self esteem has been low. I learned a new philosophy or a way to tackle life from my friend and that is to remember not to "force things" but rather let the course run naturally. This is of course easier said then done, but a very important viewpoint on life. It has taken me a long time to get to this point and the path has been one with highs and lows. After 10 years of relationship with the same person it is not easy to go back to "default" settings. This has been my task for the last 6 months. It has been at some cost, because I have had problems with concentating in my studies. I have though been extremely lucky with my group mates, who have shown understanding. I intend to pay back in abundance.
Next weekend I will invite my friends from school to a housewarming and am looking forward to it. It might be said that it is a some sort of a starting point for me. Inviting people to my new home, where I have all the things how I want them. Not that it was a huge problem before, but this is something that is mine and mine alone. Of course my apartment does show that I am not the worlds richest man, but I am nevertheless proud of what I have done so far.

The next couple of monthes will be very busy, but I am looking forward to them and I am going to be working with very interesting assignments. Furthermore, those assignements are "real" not just like any other school assignments, but with a foothold in reallife.

I have learned yet again how much friends mean to me and have so many and I want to thank them all for being there at some point or another.

Until next,

Arnar Thor